I ' m too selfish.

Haz..
And now only i know why that time you choose to do that to me. Maybe?

And now i realize what i had done is all wrong.

But time is running ,
and i can't chase it back.
I'm sorry but what can i do?

I'm a coward.

Today was okay but i thought something better will happen .
It's me .
I ruined it.EVERYTHING.

Hearing their conversations breaks my heart too.
I don't know whether i am too kind or i am not giving any suggestions....
they are treating me like invisible you know?
i really feel left out lar.
yea lar,
i can't go lar.
but at least..yea.what can you do huh?

Nothing ,
they won't count me in ,in everything.
it's my fault or mom's?
I'm deciding to blame her.

I am just tooo,
alone.
My heart is alone.
But my key is not coming.
Key is opening the other organs,
and so,
they join each other except mine.

I'm not blaming okay?
i just hope,
Hope i mean,
like the past,
why can't we just to it again?
why can't we just talk to each other ,
secretly and tell the truth?

nah......
My fault.
Told you i am a coward.