S for Sky

: I must go down to the sea again, to the lonely sea and the sky; and all I ask is a tall ship and a star to steer her by.

Have i ever told you that i actually like staring at the sky when i feel unhappy or frustrated ?




But to me ,
the sky is just a place outside the cage.


Somewhere , that i will not reach forever.
All i need ,


is just one more step.
And forget the past.

currently listening to :
ooh wee.

thankyou,
stupid girl :)
Maybe you won't realize that you actually made me smile ,
but then ,
haha , you did .

守护着我的你，到底去了那里?

一份寄不出的礼物。


It's friday morning and i 'm sitting here , typing my words and telling out what i thought this morning.

I'm having hard feelings.

I seriously know what are they thinking.
They just don't want me to get hurt , or become rebellious .
But ,
they just ruin my life.
I mean,
that's not what i wanted.

Teenagers are suppose to hang out with their friends , go shopping , and many more.
I don't even know what the hell is a tube dress or wedges .
I thought wedges are those fried potatoes KFC selling.
And my head is full of question marks when peyjing started to say about it.
"Should i wear wedges for XXX"
You're....You're wearing the potato ?

Thanks to Jialing ,
i finally know tube dress = dress that makes your boobs really tight.
Hardly breathe while wearing it.
I still anti-ing it.
What if people suddenly pull it , then everything pop out !
Hmmmm...

It's not like if i mix with my friends i won't care about my family too.
Maybe we got even more topics to talk about.

This morning , i lied down on my bed , switched on my NDSI and listen to some emo songs.
I starred at my ceiling for one hour.
And i started to daydream.
Pisces likes daydreaming , Heh!

I started to think about my life.
16years.

Am i going to spend my life alone?
Lets see.
I'm not always a winner in the friendship sector.
First i got cheated . Well lets just treat it as a lesson for me to learn.
Then , people just don't talk to me without any reason.
That i seriously don't understand.
If i made mistakes then just tell me.
Next , i realize i'm in the wrong group.
Mixing people with no common interests .
And that's when i start to mix with people that treats me like a puppet.
I seriously don't mind.
As long as you still think i'm your friend , that's all.
I know i sound as if i'm desperate to have a friend but then ,
Yes. I am.

You know i can only spend my day at home alone everyday.
And the school is the only place that i can mix with other people other than my family.

My parents are quite strict and they are not that open minded.
At the beginning of the year,
i wanted to join some .. club.
Doing some charity works , helping the people that needs my help , but...
the answer they gave me is : "If you want to help people then wait till ' you grow up. Now is not the time where you join club and help people."
The next day they were praising their friend's daughter : " See ! Their daughter can be president , can get A in co-curriculum . What about you ?"

HaHaHa.
And some idiot uncles go tell my parents that Co-curriculum is not that important.
"Just write you name there , no need to go one ! ! They also got give marks one !! "
I join clubs not for the marks laah.
I mean ,
i just wanted to have fun.
Since i will spending my time at home alone ,
why don't i join some club and have fun ?

I don't want to be regret like my brother.
Yeah ,
but in the end i failed.
When they finally let me join the club i wanted to join ,
everything is too late.
You know ,
those ... desires and desperate feelings are no longer inside me.

I don't mind if you all don't let me out with my friends.
Nono.
Correction.
At least let me out when there's something going on.
Like birthdays , farewell , parties.
They only birthday party i went was ... Elynn's .
Yes.
One and only.
And farewell ?
Well ,
that what i regret the most.

I became like a turtle .
Hiding inside my shell , afraid of everything.
I fear to ask them for permissions ,
i fear to talk to them.

Why don't i sit down and discuss these matters with them ?
I did !

My brother did !

Fail.
Maybe it's my mistake.

I should go for a brainwash .

I don't have much friends.
Everyday i try hard to put a smile on my face and ,
be a clown and make everyone laugh at me.
That's like the only way to get attention.
The only way to make friends ,
the only way where people will actually listen to me , talk to me ,
but sometimes ,they

ignore me. Haha.
Cause i'm very annoying.

Yea.
I agree.

:D

But sometimes i find faking a smile very tiring.
You just forgot what's your true self.

Then i have those feelings ,
where i want everyone to be happy.
I don't want any sad face to appear in front of me.
But , fail.

As the time goes by ,
i realize that i'm not that lonely after all.
I still got my teddy bears with me.
And of course ,
some friends.
: )


I know my parents love me but then ,
sometimes there's a gap.
I'm okay , I'm fine.
Just looking for a way to shout everything out.
That's all.


BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
No worries.
I'm still that yenhui with abnormal brain XD

My sister's keeper.

Finished My sister's keeper 5 minutes ago.
I hate this movie.
Cause it made me cry.


The casts.

Synopsis .
Conceived by means of in vitro fertilization, Anna Fitzgerald (Abigail Breslin) was brought into the world to be a genetic match for her older sister, Kate (Sofia Vassilieva), who suffers from acute promyelocytic leukemia. Because of her sister's dependency on her, Anna is unable to live the life she wants; in and out of the hospital constantly, she cannot take part in extracurricular activities such as cheerleading or soccer. When Kate turns 13 she goes into renal failure. Knowing that she will have to donate one of her kidneys to her sister, Anna sues her parents for medical emancipation and the rights to her own body. Attorney Campbell Alexander (Alec Baldwin) agrees to work for Anna pro bono. The film is interlaced with flashbacks that detail the strong relationship between Kate and Anna, as well as how Kate's illness has affected her siblings' lives. Before the result of the case is known, it is revealed that Kate had asked Anna to file for medical emancipation. Believing that she would not survive the surgery, Kate wants to die. Anna wins the case, and due to her sister's wishes does not donate her kidney. Kate later dies at the hospital. The family moves on with their lives, being changed by Kate's death, but every year on Kate's birthday they go to Montana, which was her favorite place in the world.



:D

To the girl in heaven , may god bless you.
It's been 18years.

Hope you're doing well.

我发现。我惊讶。

你有多久没牵过你的父母的手?
有多久没好好抱抱他们?
有多久没亲他们?

经过这次的旅程，
我发现到，
这或许是我们一家人最后的旅程。

因为，
我的父母已渐渐地变老了。

人家说生，老，病，死 ，
是大家必须经历的东西。
或许有一天当你张开眼睛时，
他们已不在了。
永远永远都消失了。

曾经，
我爬到爸爸的怀抱哭着问他，
:"爸爸， 是不是有一天我们都会消失?那么 ， 我们还会再见面吗?我的朋友们呢?也是会这样吗?"

爸爸只说了一句，

:"有一天 ，大家都会回到属于他们的地方。有一天，我们会离开你们。"

而我，
只是一直哭着说；"我不要!不要!"

可是当我长大以后，
才发现，无论你怎么阻止 ， 也阻止不了，
因为这就是人生。

爸爸头上的白发越来越多，
我才发现到，
原来他们老了，
已追不上我们的脚步了。

我才发现到，
在这16年里，
我何时，真正的关心他呢?

可笑吧!
拍这张照片时，爸爸叫我把手放在妈妈的肩膀上。

但
我没有。
可能是一直以来对她的恐惧吧!
才会造成今天的伤害。

我当时知见到一个伤心的妈妈，
女儿不敢抱她。

只留下一句，
:"她是等到我死才会抱我的!"

真的吗?
我是这样想的吗?

有时候，
真的很讨厌自己懦弱的性格。

友情上也是一样。
都是那一位，
让人失望的人。

我人在这里，
但父母却已为我操心将来我到外面上课的事情。
他们害怕我会孤独 ， 不会照顾自己。

我在家里，可是没有出声的。
大家都认为我酷酷地，不爱讲话。

但是，
其实我有好多话想说。

我对你们那种开放的性格，
是因为，
我想把你们当作我的朋友。

我还记得去年考完PMR后，
大家都有节目，
只有我傻傻地去学校，
回家流着眼泪打电话告诉妈妈我很快乐，很多人陪我完。

那一天，
我在食堂发呆了3小时。

我不敢牵爸爸的手。
也不知道，
我以后还会有机会牵他们吗?

我很贪心。
我不想长大，也不想任何一个人离开我，
因为我讨厌一个人，
一个人的背影，
是很孤单的。

一年了。
你有发现到时间过得很快吗?

可能有一天，


我也追不上了。


现在只想实现自己的梦想，



让身边的人活得快乐，


无论，需要付出多大的代价。

:D

如果有一天我消失了，



你还会记得我叫辜彦惠吗?
还会记得那个笨笨傻傻像老太太的小妹妹是我吗?

I know I survived just because you stayed by my side

Hello.
Let me introduce you to my new pet .

Croggy.

I didn't name it.
It was Meiting who asked me to name it Croggy.



Cute kan ?
The tongue is not my idea.
It was Celine's.
She's the one who coloured it pink.



Btw,
my dear pea is afraid of it.
She keep on asking me to take it away.

Lol.

Suppose to attend chemistry extra class today.
But teacher is not around.


Did i mentioned that i'm showing you Croggy's owner ?

She's a ...

Very cute little girl , with pure mind and...nice braces.

TA-DA



Gotta go :D

Ganas girls got feelings too !

I love my new playlist.
It calms me down.
Not to think too much.

Can i be your Demi Lovato and you be my Selena Gomez?

Watch A bug's life tonight!

Channel:	Disney Channel (615)
Date:	Tuesday, September 08, 2009
Time:	7:30:00 PM

Synopsis:
Bullied by a band of greedy grasshoppers, the ants fight back led by their hero, Flik, who enlists the help of an unemployed troupe of bug performers.

I miss this movie :):):)
The last time i watched it was ... 11 years ago.
Awwww...

Anyway ,
i watched UP!
MUHAHAHAHA.
But with my brother and his girlfriend lahh.
Very,very weird.
I even cried .
Everyone thought it's the front part there that i cried,
but NO!!


I should have laughed right?
But i cried.


LOL = LACK OF LOVE


I need to have a talk.
I still don't know how to make my decision.
I dislike this.

Can i be your Demi Lovato and you be my Selena Gomez?

Exam is around the corner.
Study hard.

Gotta go.

ADIOS!

This post is dedicated to someone , who always be with me no matter the sun shines or raining heavily.

Thankyou

Two Worlds Collide lyrics
Songwriters: Jonas, Joseph; Jonas, Kevin Ii; Jonas, Nicholas; Lovato, Demi;

She was given the world
So much that she couldn't see
And she needed someone
To show her who she could be
And she tried to survive
Wearing her heart on her sleeve
But I needed you to believe
You had your dreams,
I had mine
You had your fears,
I was fine It showed me what I couldn't find
When two different worlds collide La da-da da-da!
She was scared of it all
Watching from far away
And she was given a role
Never knew just when to play
And she tried to survive
Living her life on her own
Always afraid of the throne
But you've given me strength to find hope!
You had your dreams,
I had mine
You had your fears,
I was fine It showed me what I couldn't find
When two different worlds collide
She was scared, unprepared
And lost in the dark, falling apart
I can survive with you by my side
We're gonna be alright (We're gonna be alright)
This is what happens when two worlds collide
You had your dreams,
I had mine
You had your fears,
I was fine
It showed me what I couldn't find
When two different worlds collide
La da-da da-da!
You had your dreams,
I had mine (You had your dreams, I had mine)
You had your fears,
I was fine
It showed me what I couldn't find
When two different worlds collide
When two different worlds collide

She always smile on the outside , but on the inside she's falling apart.

: )

Bye.

Why must life be like that?

51 years ago , at a little town call Ansun ,a mum gave birth to this little boy.He's a adorable little boy.Everyone likes him.But , during his 2 years old birthday , he had high fever.From that day ownwards , he have what we all known as "Down Syndrome".His mind is completely blank.His big brother took up the responsibility to take care of him.Many many years later , this mother gave birth to 3 sons and 2 daughters.Because of the number of family members and his little brother , this big brother had to stay with his uncle , who doesn't really welcome him.

10 years , 20 years later,this big family came to Damansara.And they decided to make there their home.At this little house , many joy and tears happened.The mother's son had all married, the daughters found their nice husband too! Only this second son , staying beside his mum , because he don't even know how to walk or talk.All he can do is remember and calls his relatives names.The mother feeds her second son , help him to take his shower , everything! His mom taught him to take the cup and spoon, just to make him more independent.This second son likes to watch Tv.Because he like to see people walking around him.Just like a baby , he wants some attention.

The 30th year, the mother's sons and daughters brought along their children .And ate together with their father.The second son learn to know his nephew and niece . But he can only call out their names.Nephew and niece will play with him , watch TV with him , massage him and during the chinese new year , they will feed him with the tibits.

This second son live with joy .He had nothing to worried about.He's mind is only a 2 year old little boy.He don't know how to walk .He can't only depends on the chair , to make him move around by kicking the floor , pushing himself everywhere.This family even hired a maid to look after him.UNTIL,

last week , they wanted to feed this second son porridge.As usual they put a bowl of porridge on his little table , and he will try to eat. But ,he push away the bowl of porridge.Everyone wonder why is he so naughty.His mother try to ask him , but fail.They brought him to the clinic, and they found out that this second son is blind.His world is dark.He cannot watch TV anymore.They pity this second son.Daughters and Sons came back , except the big brother.He was busy and so he know nothing about it.Some say this second son is going to where he belongs.Some place that they will meet together one day.Yesterday ,the big brother went home when he know about him.The sons and daughters blame him.Blame him for not caring the family.He cried alone at a corner, with his wife comforting him.He can't help his little brother.His heart broke into pieces.And they all know that this second son will not live longer.They made a promise.Everyone to go home this Saturday.And bless this second son.

Maybe it's better for him to leave this world.He suffers a lot here.Maybe he will get a better life next time.Maybe he will be adventurer next time.Because in this life , he had never leave his house before, only when they moved their house for 2 times.


End.

We just can't control things like what we want.

I'm sorry for the spelling or grammar mistakes.

Yenhui says : Bless him.

It's me.

It's me.
I'm always the one who destroys a plan.
I'm always the one who is stubborn.
I'm always the one who never accept people's idea.
I'm always the one being selfish.
I'm always the one who make mistakes.
I'm always the one who make everyone unhappy.
I'm always the one who make people disappointed.
I'm always the one who cause trouble.

It's all my fault.

I'm sorry about the board today.
I can only write here ,
because i don't have the guts to apologize in front of you all.
I fear.
I fear that you guys will leave me alone.
I fear that no one will talks to me.
I fear that no one will plays with me.
I fear.

That's all.
By the way ,
i can't log into my facebook.

Sometimes things just not like what we think.

I don't know why , but i consider myself as a very very very bad friend.
I don't even know what happened to my very best friend , until the others told me about it.
Just feeling really really bad.

I hate me for today.


Finally a PJPK for us , i brought along my racket although it's raining this morning.
Really ,really , really disappointed cause most of them did not bring their shirt.
So , end up playing with aijing.
At first was Meiting , then Nicole .
But this 2 girls wanted to play basketball .

Had a fun time with Kang and Nicole.
I think we folded more than 10 paper planes lohh.
LOL.
Then we sat together and chat.
Topic of the day : BRA!
lol.
Kang keep on asking me , Eunice and Nicole about it.
He even asked why bra is so expensive.
Oh.I think he's really interested in push up bra.
End up Eunice draw it out for him.

So ,
that's all i think.

My heart is raining. Heavy rain.

:)

If that lie makes you better , then i will feel better.

Hello people!

Just watched Pink Panther 2 that Karhei borrows me.
I rate it 6/10.

Well.
My brother went out , that's way i got the chance to blog.
If not ,
haah , I will be sitting downstairs doing nothing.

I'm now addicted to ,

REGINA SPEKTOR

A super doople weird singer , but i love her songs.
Doesn't mean i 'm weird lahh.

Dance anthem of the 80s



oh bee-tee-double U ,
YANXIN IS BACK!!!!
She hid behind meiting , and i can't see her weiih.
lol.
But i think she grew taller .


Imissboney.
Imissstaply.

If god happen to pass by ,
Bless them.
I wish Elynn is alright.
I wish Jialing is alright.
I wish her studies are alright.
I wish Yanxin 's ranking will got higher next time.
I wish Meiting to stop stoning.
I wish Celine will let me play Boney.

That will do.
Buh-Bye.

Oh ,
If you're viewing my blog ,
and you happen to go to the Bon Odori fiesta tomorrow ,
do me a favour.

Say Hello to jialing , Talk to jialing , Hug her , Make her smile ,

and..

Make that smile last longer.

:))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

rara!tata!yaya!papa!sasa!dada!fafa!gaga!haha!jaja!kaka!lala!caca!vava!baba!nana!mama!

ALOHA~
This is me , with my hairs tied up.
I'm in a rush so the picture turns up to be like that.
Looks....weird .


and.
I was halfway chatting with MR.MOODY.
Suddenly my MSN auto. signed me out.
I CAN'T SIGN IN ANYMOREEEEEEEEE!


Anyway,
MR.MOODY,
NO MATTER WHAT DECISION YOU MADE,
I'M WITH YOU !
I mean i will support you , till' the end :)


but,
the condition is ,






SMILE!

you wanted me to spreadthesmile ,
you also need to smile .
ALRIGHT?




DEAL.


Class is boring.
WELCOME FORM 6-SIANS.
:)

The new chemistry teacher wasn't that bad after all .
With her QQ hair,
i think she's a good teacher :)


I'm a stupid girl.
I don't know how to make you smile,
and so i dedicate this song to you :)
Hope ya' like it.

Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though its breaking
When there are clouds in the sky, youll get by
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
Youll see the sun come shining through for you

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
Thats the time you must keep on trying
Smile, whats the use of crying?
Youll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile



Thats the time you must keep on trying
Smile, whats the use of crying?
Youll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile




SEE !THEY LOOKS SO QQ WHEN THEY SMILE:)

I'm suffering from morning till' now.
I'm going for a checkup maybe tonight or during the holidays.
with me luck :)


blooooooody hell .
can't sign in.

Today is a windy day !

Yael Naim


Ben Lee


Teresa Teng


The fray


Take that


Dongli Train


Leo ku and Zhou huiming


Joe Purdy


Great Northern


The Romantics


Chris Daughtry




-----------------------------
Hah.
Heavy rain this morning.
Js being a nice guy brought the umbrella and share with me ! !
:)

ahh.
I'm having flu AGAIN !

Heard some...AHH I DON'T CARE.
This is suppose to be a online diary right?
I 've got the right to post anything i want right??
If you don't like just go ahead and click the cross sign LAHH.

Blehhhh
XD.
AHH ,
better not do this.
Later people say i act cute pulak.

Nothing to do is it ?
Revise your homeworks lahh !

AHDUIIIIIII.
Lifeless people.

Lynn changed her class.
I mean the whole 4s6 changed their class.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO !
I gonna be left out AGAIN ! ! !

:(:(

Nevermind.
I 'm learning to put everything down.
I don't want to turn up crazy.

Bla bla bla.

Absorb the tears , pillow ,
ABSORBBBBBBB !
I just couldn't learn how to resist.
Takes time lah okay ?



BUH-BYE.

Tomorrow , tomorrow and tomorrow.

LOL.
Why worry that much?

Yenhui is back !

AFTER SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MANY DAYS ,





i decided not to EMO already.
Aku tak mau orang berisau untuk aku.
Aku orang baik kan ?




and i decided to be .......








































5








4











3









2









1













DENG










DENG












DENG












DENGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG











Yo, Yo !

E


L



M


O


E-L-M-O !



Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ~ BRILLIANT LEHH. :)

Anyway ,
spread the smile :)

Believe yenhui ,
this time she's real.
For just once,
she's starting to hate someone.

I seriously don't want to.


-off.
To the other world.

Believe me,
i'm stuffing junk foods inside my mouth.
I'm not happy.

JIALING !!! MY TURN TO BE EMO LAHH !

I 'm tired to be alone.

Sometimes i just hate this feeling.
I'm tired being alone,
I think i'm starting to hate school.

When you look beside you , there's no one for you.
When you wanted someone to walk beside you ,
they just walk away as fast as they can.

and i still believes that,
there's still a sky for me.


off.ishouldn'twritethishere.
totheotherworld.

omg.i wanted to drink some water moments ago,but end up i split everything out.I'm wet.

Something that we just can't turn back anymore.

WOAH ! LOOK at hooyenhui's hand.
Nice lehh.
No lahh.
I also don't know what caused it to be like that.
Back from chengmeng then like that ady.

















Well,
It's a bright bright day today !
For me lahh !
Due to some special reasons.

:)
















And guess what ?
It's the last day of March.

Many stuff had happened,
and.
well ,
i 'm quite satisfied with the life now.

except ,
you.



blooooooooody hell.
yenhuineedstogotothesecondhome.

Gonna visit baby kayzhun and kayjing.

chengmeng.

So,
woke up at 5 .00a.m. ,
and everyone gathered at grandfather's house.

Bertolak.
Went to 4 different places.
Visited my grandfather's grandfather , my grandfather's sister , my grandfather's grandfather's brothers , my grandma's father and my grandma's brother.

Makan-ed seafood at .....errr....."I don't know where"

then .
Balik Rumah.


我讨厌家族问题。

---------------------------
Hari ini.

Ahduii.
Mereka asyik bergaduh dengan WNF.
Buat sampai muka dia merah macam tomato.
Pasal tukar tempat sahaja mahh.
Itu WNF pergi koyak chaoyan and peyjing punya kimia projek ,
TERUKNYA !

Macam ni lahh.

I banyak happy today.
Banyak banyak happy today :)



off.totheotherblog.

SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSMILE LAHH.

:)
I know that recently ,
everyone are getting their results.
Some cried,
some laughed.
Some......Regretted.

Well,
No point to be sad now.
IT'S OVER.

So,
Let's start a "afterfirsttermexamnewlife"now !
Do what you regretted for not doing.
Practice on subjects that you're really bad with it.

and most important ,


SMILE.

Remember ! Smile is the source of energy.
Yes, i'm serious.


Pickupanewlifeeverybody !

Showthemyourtrueselfbyworkinghardtoday ! .
no,i mean everyday.

BTW.yanxin got 88 for sc.Econs 91.Acc. 95.

wth.